Tuesday, November 30, 2010
today is 30th.. when i open my eyes in the morning, i dont really dare to face the reality. i dont like the feeling without receiving ur msgs and i've been waiting for ur msgs all day long. until at night, tears cant be controlled. happy memories just seemed to appear in my mind. i donno u treat me so good got motive or not, but i felt really blessed when i'm with you. in my mind, i was thinking:
do you remember last 30th where we meet, how u held my hand, how nervous both of us were, how loving we are, how we held each other's hand and walk to helix bride, how u tell me all sorts of jokes and i laughed, how we took all kinds of photos, how u asked me to be ur girlfriend, how reluctant we were to go home afterwards, how unbelievable you were, and want me to tell u is true we're tgt, how HAPPY both of us were??. or you choose to let go just like that??. can u bear to leave just like that?. can u understand why i chose not to give u that?. i'm afraid.. how am i going to trust ur words when simple promises u made cant even be kept now?.
i hope one day u can put urself in my shoes and think of my reasons and how i feel.. maybe it takes some time to let both of us to calm down, i wont change my rule, but i hope u willing to change for my sake one day. i missed you.
donno why i'm blogging again.. like only blog can express how i really feel.. terrible horrible miserable..
today is 30th.. when i open my eyes in the morning, i dont really dare to face the reality. i dont like the feeling without receiving ur msgs and i've been waiting for ur msgs all day long. until at night, tears cant be controlled. happy memories just seemed to appear in my mind. i donno u treat me so good got motive or not, but i felt really blessed when i'm with you. in my mind, i was thinking:
do you remember last 30th where we meet, how u held my hand, how nervous both of us were, how loving we are, how we held each other's hand and walk to helix bride, how u tell me all sorts of jokes and i laughed, how we took all kinds of photos, how u asked me to be ur girlfriend, how reluctant we were to go home afterwards, how unbelievable you were, and want me to tell u is true we're tgt, how HAPPY both of us were??. or you choose to let go just like that??. can u bear to leave just like that?. can u understand why i chose not to give u that?. i'm afraid.. how am i going to trust ur words when simple promises u made cant even be kept now?.
i hope one day u can put urself in my shoes and think of my reasons and how i feel.. maybe it takes some time to let both of us to calm down, i wont change my rule, but i hope u willing to change for my sake one day. i missed you.
7:29 AM
Monday, November 29, 2010
i so hope i can happily blog about my everyday life with him, how much i look forward to celebrate any occasions with him, etc.. but it all ended 2 days before our 1st 30th.
when there's someone giving up in this relationship, we cant hold on anymore. i so wish that you dont give up on our relationship but change the way you think.. there's always something more impt than that..
you said before you wanna spend christmas, my birthday, your birthday, valentines' day, and many many other occasions tgt.. you said you wanna take 30 christmas tree all over the places by 25th dec. you said you wont leave me and will always be there for me. whenever i think of the places we went, the things you said, the drawing u drew, it makes me tears.. i once so hope we can always be tgt, me lying on ur shoulder, looking at the stars, or even without doing anything, as long as you're with me. i thought there's always a chance for u to change ur mindset, thats why i dont mind when u talk about sensitive things. i thought u really love me for who i am. but i was wrong. but i do love you for who you are.. the days we spent together will always be in my memories..
tmr is 30th.. stay strong emily! control ur tears and please let me get well soon!
the song you sang for me, a simple love, thats what i want.
说不上为什么 我变得很主动
若爱上一个人 什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布 对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风 在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手 一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家 看着
日落一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开 爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我 相带你骑单车
我 想的你看棒球
想这样没担忧 唱着歌 一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你 靠着我的肩膀
你 在我胸口睡着
想这样的生活 我爱你 你爱我
想简！简！单！
单！爱 ~ ~ ~ 想简！简！单！单！爱 ~ ~
i'm sorry bloggie, i've to type sad things on you again..
i so hope i can happily blog about my everyday life with him, how much i look forward to celebrate any occasions with him, etc.. but it all ended 2 days before our 1st 30th.
when there's someone giving up in this relationship, we cant hold on anymore. i so wish that you dont give up on our relationship but change the way you think.. there's always something more impt than that..
you said before you wanna spend christmas, my birthday, your birthday, valentines' day, and many many other occasions tgt.. you said you wanna take 30 christmas tree all over the places by 25th dec. you said you wont leave me and will always be there for me. whenever i think of the places we went, the things you said, the drawing u drew, it makes me tears.. i once so hope we can always be tgt, me lying on ur shoulder, looking at the stars, or even without doing anything, as long as you're with me. i thought there's always a chance for u to change ur mindset, thats why i dont mind when u talk about sensitive things. i thought u really love me for who i am. but i was wrong. but i do love you for who you are.. the days we spent together will always be in my memories..
tmr is 30th.. stay strong emily! control ur tears and please let me get well soon!
the song you sang for me, a simple love, thats what i want.
说不上为什么 我变得很主动
若爱上一个人 什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布 对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风 在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手 一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家 看着
日落一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开 爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我 相带你骑单车
我 想的你看棒球
想这样没担忧 唱着歌 一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你 靠着我的肩膀
你 在我胸口睡着
想这样的生活 我爱你 你爱我
想简！简！单！
单！爱 ~ ~ ~ 想简！简！单！单！爱 ~ ~
6:02 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2010
botanist garden!! <3 my dear came to find me at 9am on wed! :D and we explored botanist garden. and exchange our 1st week gift! i love his drawing, love his card, love him more! haha. :D he's my tour guide, my ''umbrella'' to block the sun for me, my pillow to sleep on! ((:
aha! night time is cousin's birthday! and my legs hurt due to the cold papaya and carrot orange juice.. awww!
hello! today is 2nd week with lyh. and we gonna break the chain of quarreling because of small matters every sat! thats so not good right?? haha. but we're fine now! hehe.. met him on wed, thurs and fri! for a short while for all 3 days though.. but meeting him are all happy moments! i love to study with him, love to sleep on him on bus! :D
botanist garden!! <3 my dear came to find me at 9am on wed! :D and we explored botanist garden. and exchange our 1st week gift! i love his drawing, love his card, love him more! haha. :D he's my tour guide, my ''umbrella'' to block the sun for me, my pillow to sleep on! ((:
aha! night time is cousin's birthday! and my legs hurt due to the cold papaya and carrot orange juice.. awww!
8:18 AM