Tuesday, November 30, 2010
donno why i'm blogging again.. like only blog can express how i really feel.. terrible horrible miserable..
today is 30th.. when i open my eyes in the morning, i dont really dare to face the reality. i dont like the feeling without receiving ur msgs and i've been waiting for ur msgs all day long. until at night, tears cant be controlled. happy memories just seemed to appear in my mind. i donno u treat me so good got motive or not, but i felt really blessed when i'm with you. in my mind, i was thinking:
do you remember last 30th where we meet, how u held my hand, how nervous both of us were, how loving we are, how we held each other's hand and walk to helix bride, how u tell me all sorts of jokes and i laughed, how we took all kinds of photos, how u asked me to be ur girlfriend, how reluctant we were to go home afterwards, how unbelievable you were, and want me to tell u is true we're tgt, how HAPPY both of us were??. or you choose to let go just like that??. can u bear to leave just like that?. can u understand why i chose not to give u that?. i'm afraid.. how am i going to trust ur words when simple promises u made cant even be kept now?.
i hope one day u can put urself in my shoes and think of my reasons and how i feel.. maybe it takes some time to let both of us to calm down, i wont change my rule, but i hope u willing to change for my sake one day. i missed you.
